Denial

I've been in denial about my up and down weight for almost 20 years. So, with denial comes the desire to eat more. What's the culprit? Doritos, chocolate, pizza, Chinese food, cookies, ice cream, bread, chocolate milk with whip cream, Bolthouse Farms Mocha Cappuccino... See what I did there? Already blamed the food and again denied my own responsibility. Right now, I take responsibility for the food that goes into my mouth. Seems so simple, yes? Ha! It's not. Today was a pretty good food day and required only 3 phone calls with my sister (Sister1) to discuss every bite of food and calculating points. Hopefully our decision to do our first sister joint effort to loose weight will be supportive and not sabotaging. We both can down a bag of chips (more on that detail later in another post) in one sitting. Not normal, we both know it's not NORMAL. We know what's healthy, what's not, yet here we are again, fat and fatter. Both the heaviest we've ever been. No more. Last night I signed up for Weight Watchers and Sister1 has her home kit. We are doing this together. Staying positive, staying focused and owning up to crap I've been feeding my face with.