Sister2's Old Habit

Old habits linger around the edges of your aura like static cling. This morning, I went to the kitchen to start making breakfast and the first thing I did was go to the cabinet to eat a cookie. Had the thought of 2 cookies actually. I stopped and literally shook my head, trying to shake off the automatic reflex and closed the door. They say it takes 21 days to create a new life changing habit, but how long to erase an old one? One that has been my best friend for decades? Hand-to-mouth awareness level for today needed to be at a ten. Three occasions today I mentally registered this face stuffing autopilot mode and at one point had to pull a piece of cheese out of my mouth. I was preparing something for my daughter and ate a piece of cheese. The second it hit my tongue I reeled it back. Sounds so dramatic I know, but for me you see, it's a piece of cheese here, the leftover crust from the kids pizza there, a few extra french fries, a couple of squares of toast left on a plate, etc. And BOOM, I'm a double-wide with hail damage.

Then I had a visual. My old habit of shoveling in leftover scraps from my children's plates literally made me the household garbage disposal. The thought of that sickened me enough that I was charged with the strength of 20 skinny bitches and plowed through an afternoon at a three year old birthday party and ate only fruit. Passed on the burger and lasagna and never even saw the chips on the table, nor one bite of cake. THEN as if I was fueled by the will power of a supermodel on a Paris catwalk the family went to the pizzeria for dinner tonight. I ordered a large salad with lean white meat chicken and oil and vinegar dressing on the side. When we finished eating, I started to feel like a cartoon character while clearing the table. You know, when they have the devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other? A small argument was brewing, a battle of wills taking place, my new habit vs the old habit were debating the kids leftover pizza crust. However, I knew in an instant that today my new habit would win. I threw out the kids pizza crust into the garbage can and not into my mouth.

Yep, I'd say today was a good food day. A good food day indeed.