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Today turned out to be a hot mess. The double birthday parties were loaded with food. I did manage to go through two parties and have no cake or ice cream, but I was out for 5 hours and neither party had diet soda or water and tons of food. First party I had half of a roll with tomatoes. Nothing else for two hours. Had some apple slices in the car and figured I was set for the next party. By then I was a bit hungry and food at party #2 was everywhere. I stayed wrangled but then had a burger on a bun with fresh basil and some broccoli that was in a sauce (?). Jake was snacking on some doritos and I just broke down and had a small bowl. Doesn't seem like a ton of food, but then we left to go home and needed to have dinner because by now it was 5:30! The day flew and I ate foolishly. We ordered Chinese food and I only eye ball measured. I was just so tired and hungry and DONE. Done with counting points and measuring. I didn't eat cake or ice cream or even a lot of chips. There was nothing for me to drink that was laced with sugar and I almost did a face plant in the mud with all the on and off rain storms.

Sister 1, I went over my daily points by 22!!! BUT luckily I hadn't touched any of my weekly points yet. Non-WW readers may not understand all this point business, but I technically didn't cheat, but still feel like I went way off the reservation today. Will power wasn't strong enough nor did I feel comfortable eating a banana while everyone was eating BBQ and deep fried turkey or meatballs and baked ziti...

Hoping the rest of the long weekend I am able to stay on track and make some better choices. It really makes you feel bummed when you have a 'bad' food day vs a 'good' food day. Even after 5 weeks into the 'diet' I'm reminded that I have really only taken baby steps towards healthy eating. I must find the patience and optimism to get back on track and remember this is a marathon I'll be running for the rest of my life. Food addicts have to be vigilant with every bite of food they put into their mouth.

Every single bite.

Because every single bite counts.