Weight of the World

Not by any means am I well read with today's current events. I skim headlines on the internet and read just a few magazines to try to stay on top of things. I could not intelligently discuss the war in Iraq, global warming or truly get into what's going on in Somalia. I'm a mother of two running my own business from home and for 16 weeks now trying to lose an incredible amount of weight. My time is precious and spare time comes in fleeting moments that they are then used for taking deep breaths or having a 60 second catch-up with my husband.

However, I do struggle with what seems like my minor problems compared to the weight of the worlds issues. Are polar bears doomed for extinction? What's happening in our oceans? Why are we growing more corn for fuel than for feeding starving people in the world? When did China become a super power? Why can't I recycle 4's and 5's? The list goes on. My daily food struggles about whether or not to eat a cookies seem so stupid when I think about women struggling in other parts of the world. Not only do I have days dealing with my on 'weight issues', but as a person who truly cares about the world and wanting a healthy and happy planet for my children I feel like I have days were the 'weight' of the world is on my shoulders also. How can my daily combats with food compare with the a soldier fighting for our freedom?

Today, it seemed an answer came to me and settled these introverted questions plaguing my brain. My day started with my dog having liquid diarrhea. P.S. My dog is a 90 lbs GSD. So, this diarrhea statement should not be taken lightly. Okay. That got cleaned up. Then after breakfast (yes we were actually able to eat after the clean-up) the family got a few errands done and I planned a roast chicken dinner tonight. At about 2:00 as I just finished cleaning up lunch and getting some things prepped for dinner a few things started happening all at once. First, the TV went black. Dead. We discussed replacing it previously, but now I was determined to just send my husband out to get a new TV and just stop dealing with broken stuff all over the house. So, off he went to Best Buy and I started getting dinner in the oven. Then the dog started with diarrhea again.... and again... and again. Up and down the stairs I flew restarting the carpet cleaner and trying to get dinner moving along at the same time. My kids were hungry and demanding food and screaming every time the dog was having an accident.

During all this time I did 4 loads of laundry, continually mopped floors, was trying a new recipe and fielded a few calls from my husband while he was at Best Buy. Mostly to tell me it was all going to cost more than we thought. Yippee! Now it's the evening and two kids are asleep, my dog has been gated to the downstairs and the rugs were pulled up (at one point he broke though the gate only to come upstairs and have more diarrhea in my bedroom) and the dishes are all done now.

Where the hell is the answer in this frantic miserable day? My weight issues can't possibly compare to the weight of the world. But this is my life. No politician came into my house and cleaned up the poo. Gordon Ramsey didn't show up and make dinner for me. Jillian Michaels didn't come over for a training session. Today I was dealt a 'shitty' hand in more ways then one. Some days that's just how it goes. And amongst all the chaos I figured out my place in the world. Right now I can do the world good by staying on the weight loss path. I need to be the best me and continue to loose the weight, get fit and healthy. If everyone tried a little harder to be a better person/a healthier person imagine what a wonderful place this planet would be? I know I'm just one little person on the Earth with billions of others, but I have to trust we can all make a difference. Now that I'm thinking smaller about the 'weight issues' of the world I feel a little lighter. I don't know all what the future will hold, but this I do know. I will continue to loose weight and be the best human being I can be. Only good can spread from it and hopefully someone else will feel a little lighter tomorrow.