The blog posts have definitely been far and few between, but the commitment towards the challenge of losing weight has not ended. The two sisters continue to struggle. Our efforts some days are fantastic, while other days prove to be overcome by daily stress and binge eating. Good news is that both of us have embraced exercise for some time now. Results for me are evident in excellent overall blood work from my doctor. No signs of my obesity damaging my body, yet. However, this news should not make me complacent in the goal to shed pounds. I'm back on the wagon and though only day 3 in the process of logging my food into myfitnesspal, 3 days is like a miracle and I am proud of these glorious efforts to ward off junk food and sugar.
Meeting with a trainer for some time now, plays into my psyche. As hard as I work out and am sore for days on occasion, it all should be enough of a reminder to keep nonsense eating at bay, but the mental game of thinking that you work out is a license to eat more is a myth of sorts. A few hundred calories burned is there for replenishment of healthy food, not cookies. The trainer reminded us that working out is only 20% of your weight loss efforts, 80% is what you put in your mouth. I embrace that 20% with great effort, but for years is seems that 80% still alludes me. I know what I should be eating, I know what's healthy and what's not, then why does one choose poison still in an hour of stressful need?
One day I hope to get to the root of this self sabotage and hope to overcome this behemoth obstacle. Or any chance of loosing and KEEPING it all off will never happen. I love the feeling of muscle in places that I have not in so long. Working out brings a high and feels wonderful to have sweat drip off of me. Will that ever be enough to motivate me to stay on the path of healthy eating? I'm not sure and only time will tell on how I embrace it all.
Over the weekend I had a BBQ and the blog was mentioned and Sister 1 agreed that we should be making entries again. Someone shouted, make it 'Season 2'! So here begins another season, another year of our efforts towards health, feeling good and shedding pounds that will otherwise one day damage our bodies for good. Hoping this years efforts to convert to healthier habits will further be engrained on our psyches and that the futures holds what we are both so desperately seeking.
